[ImSoLost]

Hey I am a almost 14 I think that I don't deserve to be treated this way.. Its like I don't understand myself I'm very happy and then the next minute I'm sad.. This past school year it seems like I have weakened, because sometimes I get joked on by my so called friends... I've lost my best friend who I've known for 3 years.. I have another one who I deeply trust but still we don't seem to bond as much as my last best friend.. My mom often accusses me of things that aren't true... And in some moments I feel like the world doesn't have anything to offer me anymore. I feel like I'm just taking up space, and I don't deserve too be here.. At times I feel like I am worth it and have something to offer... I think I'm havind mood swings.. And no I don't want to talk about it to anyone...

[joypulv]

.. yet here you are, talking to many someone's! (Good.)
It isn't easy in a short paragraph to know if you are going through typical teenage angst and distance from parents or if you might have a chemical imbalance that will lead to a diagnosis someday. It sounds like the former, typical teen, even when you say mood swings. I was popular and a good student but suffered a lot in high school, mainly from feeling unloved and meaningless at home. I had insomnia and cried in my room. I left home after school already depressed.
I wish I had had someone to talk to, and hope you will change your mind.
Friends? You need ONE. Value the one you have with all your love.
Mother who doesn't trust you? Not easy. Somehow you have to prove that you are trustworthy, but I'm saying this in hindsight. Some day when you aren't emotional ask her how you can convince her to trust you and believe you and not accuse you. Tell her it's very very important.
What the world has to offer? Nothing and everything and whatever is in between. In short, what you make of it, trite as that sounds. The world OWES us nothing.
Good luck.

[death_kiss]

I just graduated high school a couple years ago and it was horrible for me, some of the best and worst times of my life. I promise you it gets better, it seems in high school like everyone has a million friends and you have none, but in truth everyone is lonely. Whenever you are in the down times of your mood just do the best you can to remind yourself that things will get better, and they will.

Just remember everyone has a purpose and you will find yours, it just may take a little longer than others.

Also, find if you don`t think your friend or friends aren`t true try looking for new ones or confront your friend about the way you feel.

[ImSoLost]

-Thanks So Much...