[blueisu1994]

Hi,
I'm a 16 year old girl and I'm finding it really hard to talk to my mom...

So along time ago when I was 6 I was molested by this friend of the family who was umm maybe 18?. idk 17... and it wasn't till 3 years ago I kind of started to remember.. and its not like I just remember bits and pieces its like I feel I am there and I know eveything he said and I know how I felt when it was happening, many people have told me to get over it because it was so long ago and its not like I was raped but its still really hard for me and I think about it everyminuit... I think the big reason I'm stillthinking about it is because I really don't know what happened after.. I know thar I had told my mom, I just don't know if he had gone to jail or something...

My problem is that I don't feel comfortable asking my mom about it because its really awkward to me, and I haven't spoken about it since I don't know so I kind of think that she thinks I forgot or something... I know he's not in jail now because I saw pictures of him visiting his family.. but maybe he just went to jail for a small amount of time or something.. I think its really important for me to find out, I've tried looking online to see maybe if he was regestered but he's not on there unless he's a level 1 sex offender because my state doesn't put them on there website and I think that's what he would be right?.

So any ideas of finding out I don't know.. I know I can call but I'm scared too!

I think I'm going crazy with out knowing and I know its not that much of a big deal but yeaa... it still hurts because I trusted him and then its like a smack in th face... iv been suicidal and I selfharm and my parents found out about me wanting to die but never really put the puzzle together and got to the real problem.. and yes I've been to a theripst nothing works its not easy for me to talk about it because I feel like there judging me or thinking *** why is she still sad... sometimes it just gets so hard that I feel like I need to just end my life because I know that I will never get to the end of it and you think it would get easier because I'm older but it just adds so much pressure because I'm just covering it all up and being afraid..

Sorry that was long, I just need to vent out my emotions so they don't eat me up inside

[Kitkat22]

First of all who ever it was that told you to get over and forget it
Needs to know they may have enabled a pedophile by asking you to keep silent. Does your mother know?

I don't know but I think a sex offender has to register or let the Police Department know where he is living.

I hope you know this wasn't your fault and you still need to get counseling. Also if this man has molested other children you need to let someone know he did the same too you.

[Wondergirl]

I'm a counselor, and, no, we don't judge our clients. (We've heard everything under the sun -- trust me. We just want to help.) Please tell your therapist about this.