[Soccer983NC]

Hi... im 17 and along time ago I was sexauly abused by a family member who we no longer speak to but recently my parents have become close to his family. Im just really conffussed and sad because he never got in trouble and my parents new and they did nothing... I forgot about what happened but then over the past years its been getting harder I just think about him everymin. Sometimes I feel like it was a just a bad dream but unfortunately it wasn't. I feel like its eating me inside and no one understands and theb I read other stories of past victoms and feel like "well maybe what happened wasnt as bad", but it still hurts and I just feel really uncomfortable talking about it with anyone. I think that my parents think that I don't remember but I do and sometimes I relive it. I've been getting really bad dreams where I watch my friend get raped but I don't do anything I just stand there. I feel quilty because idid nothing to stop it just closed my eyes and let him touch me. I believe its hurting my life because I can't think about anything else. And I'm nervous because in health we will be learning about abuse and I just can't deal with that my face gets red and I feel like the teacher it talking only to me. I have mixed emotions about men all just because of one night.. ;(

I don't know what to do, I'm in theripy for drug abuse but I can't seem to tell him, basically I'm waiting for my parents to tell my story.

[letmetellu]

I would suggest you call a "Rape Crisis Center" or some kind of HOT LINE that opperates in your area. They have people there that are trained to work with you to help you get to the point where you can live an almost normal life even though you think about this awful thing every day that was done to you.

I suggest that you make up your mind that you are not going to let this person take anymore of your life from you. He took from you something that you did not want him to have and he hurt you bad at that time, but he is gone now but your pain is still going on because you took over for him in rehashing what he did to you, now that is causing the pain to yourself. Don't let this person be in control of your life anymore.

And good luck and do call someone.

[Kitkat22]

Remind your parents about his actions and tell them how you feel.
What a sicko. You can talk to your mom and tell her you don't want to be around him. Remember, it wasn't your fault! He should be in prison.

It makes me sick that your folks would subject you to this. I hope he is found out because chances are he has done this to others.

Good Luck... God Bless

[redhed35]

Teenagers who experience sexual assult are twice as likely as non abused teens to experiment wth anti social behaviour including drugs.

It an unhealthy and danerous way to escape those thoughts and feelings,but it very temporary,as the reality is waiting.

IF you can't say the words to your councillor,write them on a piece of paper,
Example ." i was sexually abused,i dont know how to talk about it"

Your councillor is trained to know what the next thing to say is going to be,he/she is in a position to unlock the voice in your head that can turn your thinking around.

They ca nhelp put you on the right course for healing and also suggest to your parents some family therapy.

The best way to move forward from this is to ask for help.