Madly in love with a straight(?) friend, driving me crazy, today he said "I love you"
I know there are probably a million similar topics to this one on here, but I am stressed out my mind and don't know where else to turn to.
I am madly in love with a friend of mine who has confused me to the point of I don't know what to think anymore. I am gay, and he now knows this. He's the biggest flirt I've ever met and has no sense of personal space boundaries (at first I thought this explained away everything, but it seems to be a more concentrated type of flirting with me, he'll actively keep close to me, hug me and nobody else etc. etc.). We have slept together twice now (obviously nothing happened or I wouldn't be writing this). He had no issue with stripping down and sleeping, literally almost ontop of me (it was a single bed). To begin with I didn't tell him about my orientation, but his constant flirting with me and then badgering on about the hotness of a random girl we'd pass drove me to the point of bringing the topic of sexuality up in conversation. He said that he "reckoned he could "go" bi but he didn't want to". I was confused by this, as I don't believe you can choose sexual preference. We went back to mine that night and were in my bed. I passed a remark (about the tv) designed to suggest to him I was gay, which he picked up on and asked me. I told him I was, and that was it. He didn't seem to react in anyway negative or positive, nor did he shy away from being so close to me. The next morning he said he was "suprised" by my revelation to him, then just before he left he did his customary hug, then looked into my eyes and said "I love you.". That nearly ended me, and I have spent the past day trying to work out what he meant by that: he's a naturally touchy/feely person, so realistically I'm guessing he just means that in a friend to friend way? I don't want to directly ask him what's going on, because I'm terrified of losing him as a friend and am unsure as to how he would react. My friend is concerned he may be messing with me and intends to try and find out for herself, but I'd be so grateful to hear any input from the people here.
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