[caitie_Q]

Im 16 and I was wondering if I should go see a physiatrist or something in that nature because I am constantly thinking about killing someone or even suicide and I am always mean I am never nice. I have friends but I don't become very close with them if I feel that I am becoming really close with someone I stop talking to them for about a week so we are no longer as close as we used to be. Please help.

[N0help4u]

Yes you need to see someone and get help

[Gemini54]

I would go and speak with someone. Teenagers often think about death - but thinking about killing other people isn't healthy for you or for them!

[Oneoffew]

What do you think are causing some these feelings? Do you have trauma in your life, or do you have a history of it?

[ChihuahuaMomma]

Can you talk to your parents to see if they will take you to someone?

I would suggest that you talk to the school counselor, but that might cause some problems with your schooling.

[Clough]

I do hope that you return to this thread to address the questions that others have asked, caitie_Q!

The question that I have for you is, do you have any brothers and/or sisters, and if so, how old are they and are you "close" to them in terms of sharing of things about which you're concerned?

Thanks!

[caitie_Q]

OK I am not talking to a school counselor ik they are theyr for you but not at my school and they have more severe people to deal with than me. I asked my parents if I could see someone and theyr like for what theyrs nothing wrong with you but I don't want to tell them the things I listed on here. I have 3 older siblings. 2 sisters 31 and 32 and a brother who is 18. I am close with my bro and one of my sis' I prefer not to talk to the other one we do not get along at all.im not close to tell them I am crazy! I do think about killing myself also. I perfer to be by myself a lot and not sround people. My parents have been fighting with each other all my life.. do you think that can have an effect on me? I really do want to talk to someone but I don't know how to tell my parents. Please help..

[artlady]

ok i am not talking to a school counselor ik they are theyr for you but not at my school and they have more severe ppl to deal with than me. i asked my parents if i could see someone and theyr like for what theyrs nothing wrong with you but i dont want to tell them the things i listed on here. i have 3 older siblings. 2 sisters 31 and 32 and a brother who is 18. i am close with my bro and one of my sis' i prefer not to talk to the other one we do not get along at all.im not close to tell them i am crazy! i do think about killing myself also. i perfer to b by myself alot and not sround ppl. my parents have been fighting with eachother all my life..do you think that can have an effect on me? i really do want to talk to someone but i dont know how to tell my parents. please help..

Yes,your parents always fighting most certainly has had an effect on you.

No one should have to live in that kind of environment.It is unhealthy emotionally.

It is like being in the middle of a battle ground and that is why people who live under those conditions suffer from post traumatic stress disorder.

I am not saying you have P.T.S.D. but it is a possibility.

It must make you angry and nervous and upset to hear that all the time and you probably feel helpless as well.

Have you ever told them how they make you feel when they fight all the time? How it is affecting you emotionally?

I think you need to have a serious discussion with both of them,when they are not fighting and tell them the stress of their constant bickering is affecting you in a bad way.

It is also difficult because I am sure you feel that you have no power to stop it and feeling helpless to change your life is never a good feeling.

No,my dear,you are not crazy,you are reacting in a very normal way to a very abusive situation.

Talk to your parents,maybe they aren't even aware how damaging emotionally their behavior is.
There are always people here willing to listen as well if you ever just need a friend.

[Clough]

Excellent points made by artlady above!

[Clough]

Especially the two below:

Have you ever told them how they make you feel when they fight all the time? How it is affecting you emotionally?

I think you need to have a serious discussion with both of them,when they are not fighting and tell them the stress of their constant bickering is affecting you in a bad way.

Thanks!

[caitie_Q]

I don't feel comfortable talking to my parents about this though... I used to get counseling when I was in grammar school but I was young and thought I didn't need to talk to anyone but now that I am older I start seeing what is going on in my head.

[Clough]

How about talking to one or more of your teachers at school and seeing what they recommend?

Thanks!

[SafeHeart]

Maybe you are just so darn smart that you are angry with many things you see around you. Too, sounds like you are disgusted with so many angry people acting out, that you are sucking yours up inside -- instead of being like them. That is not crazy but it is not healthy. You need to talk with a counselor. At the very least, read about anger, and maybe keep a diary. Writing sometimes helps!

[dannyinthebox]

Hey I'm fascinated to meet some one who went through the same stuff that I went through... OK if you are listening to any heavy music its better you dont(it has a lot of negative influences).. keep yourself engaged.. when you know your thoughts are going bad why do you let run in your head so do something that you love the most.. and also when things are bad at home just go out for a walk with your pod listen to some songs.. I understand what it feels like but this is how I got over it

[rockinsmile089]

Well, it is not your fault. I would talk to a therapist and your parents. It would also help if you talk to your doctor. You may have depression.