Originally Posted by
pinkytweak16
i dont sleep as much as i used to, can't concentrate on on some things i don't trust any one (even my family) sometimes i don't like it when they know how i feel, friends is a lie, love is a lie (being alone sucks), a year ago i used to cut myself after i stopped i started to see a black dot in my left eye it still comes and goes when i used to have friends i felt like i had a connection with them even when they were not there i'm not interested in people i can't relate to when somthing horrible happens i block it out and i don't really remember, sometimes i don't pay attention when people are talking to me i have alot of trouble telling people what i'm talking about people often misjudge what my expressions or emotions are i almost became anarexic (im over it now) sometimes it takes me a few days to know if im sad or mad about somthing it's like my emotions and myself arn't always connected
Pinky,
Do your best to not catagorize "mental" or put yourself into that category. :)
There's a lot to take a look at, but simply :
First you should go to your doctor and get a physical. Make sure your hormones are in balance and that your blood work is within standard norms.
When your physical body isn't healthy is causes your brain to secret hormones which influce a lot of things such as the ability not to sleep well.
The inability to sleep is tremendous and can make a person paranoid, not able to each, become indifferent (unable to feel).
So, please make sure to get some medical help before you catagorize yourself in a mental place.
Okay, then... after that... if the doctor tells you that your physical fine you must tell him exactly what you typed in your psting, it's important. Most likely the doctor will refer you to a person you can address the mental side of these issues.
Behavior and Mental issues are similar and not always the same. Take some time to read up on things. Learn about how your brain works. Learn about how your body and your brain function together. Learn about hormones and how they affect your ability to do many things.
Talk with a doctor, friend, parent, maybe if you attend group functions such as religious organizations and/or such.
Your issuse you typed about are all issues I have dealt with my whole life. And this I have to say to you. If I am not physically healthy my ability to mentally cope is taxed. And, unfortunately, my mental ability was taxed as a child. I grew up in an abusive environment, which has caused me some growing pains that often times people are quick to catagorize as "mental" but really they are behavioral...
Or my way of looking at the world, my mental attitude about my situation.
Please reach out to someone, talk about what your typing, sometimes that's the solution in a nutshell, just to talk about it.
Also, something else to takea look at? Maybe take a look at the possibility that you may be highly introverted living in highly extroverted world. You may also be very sensitive to people and have natural tendencies to block bad energy from people. I am not aware of your age, but my advice to you is...
Please be careful about labeling yourself... Only you can truly understand where you are at all times, it's the rest of the world who's left wondering... :)
W.
Originally Posted by
pinkytweak16
umm i dont think seeing a dot in my eye is finding sonthing new about myself no offense
Pinky, the dot in your eye could be what is called a floater. Often people get them when under a lot of stress, it's the "pop" (nothing to worry about) of a tiny tiny blood vessel and that black spot is "scar"... you'll probably have it your whole life. I've got two them, and I especially see them when in direct sunlight. If the dot moves definitely a floater. Maybe having an eye exam can clear it up for you. Stigmatisms are maybe also something to look into, but that usually comes with eye strain and the use of glasses. :)
Originally Posted by
pinkytweak16
i took a few test and they said i have schizoid personality disorder i have no idea i just wanna know if theres somthing wrong with me i dont care about how being 16 is confuseing and how i should feel about getting help i just would like to know if im crazy or not thats all
You are not crazy Pinky, you just need to follow your heart. Sounds like you've got a lot of people pushing you to maybe do things you may not want to do... thus your body is reacting to them the way it is.
If you've only had a few test and you haven't been in therapy for at least 6 months (once a week) no doctor can give you such a diagnosis. If someone did... they are the ones who are "crazy" and I would suggest a 2nd opinion, you have that right.
Don't take everything to heart, and hold some "open" space in your heart to maybe hear what others have to say to help... but truly your only 16 and in order for anyone to be schizoid you must have a childhood past in which you've been "acting out" getting into trouble with authority (maybe jail time), doing things to violate others, and a handful of other things... the list could be endless if someone tried to make a list... :)
Schizoid is a behavioral issue. No medicine, or physical issues are involved. I serioualy hope you went to your family doctor and had your blood work done (please see my first post to your original posting).
Shoot your 16 your hormones are flying off the chart every where and they are suppose to! You are going to be highly susceptible and vunerable to many things.
Give yourself a chance... BY no way shape or form are you crazy... Schizoid is merely a "LABEL" for people who behave a little outside the bell curve in which most people don't know what to say when people act "differently"...
Also, not saying you do, but if you are having a difficult time sensing any pleasure you might want to look into "depression" because depression can manifest into INDIFFERENCE (the inability to feel temporaily, and temp can mean years in some cases).
Take a look at this website for some info:
2KnowMySelf | The Ultimate Source for Self Understanding , getting more than 300,000 visits each month
If you are experimenting with drugs:
Marijuana
Cocaine
Huffing
Pills
Then these sorts of activities DIRECTLY affect your brain chemistry and affects an area in your brain (limbic system) and makes it difficult for a person to experience pleasure.
It's like you're over exhausting your hormorne secrection for pleasure because the drug use stimulates it constantly... wearing your pleasure principle on "thin ice"... so if your experiementing, you might want to stop and see if your symptoms lighten... generally takes 180 days of no drug use to begin to notice a difference or not... be aware.
I wish you the best pinky...