[chelsealicious]

I have a SERIOUS issue. First of all my mom hates me. I know everyone says/thinks their mom hates them, but I know this for a fact. She calls me so many hurtful names! Like she called me an ugly because I didn't want wash the dishes. She even said I was dumb, stupid, sissy, and that she wanted to kill me. I had just arrived from school and I was tired is that so wrong? She constantly reminds me that I will NEVER amount to anything in life. I remember she told me that she hated me twice and that she wish I was never born. I didn't ask to be born! The worst thing she ever did was lock me up in her store. My niece had used her body wash and she blamed it on me. This thing cost her TEN DOLLARS!! She beat me with a belt, threw hot water on me and locked me up. What kind of mother does these things? I remember last year she beat my nephew with a rake and he had to get 39 stitches. A few weeks ago she threw my nieve, nephew and me outside because she couldn't find her gold necklace. How am I supposed to know where she put it? She always blames me for everything she misplaces! I'm sick of this! I want to go to social services but I'm afraid. I live in the bahamas, where kids are allowed to be beaten, but I was born in Miami. I don't know what to do! I think about suicide but I'm afraid of pain and dying. I'll be 16 November 17 and I want to drop out of school. I have money saved up and I'm thinking about running away from the bahamas and getting lost in the USA. No one loves me. I don't have anyone to trust my business with and everyone here gossips too much so my business would be all over the world in minutes. To everyone else, my mom is an angel. At home she's a y ! My dad just sits there and does nothing. My friends are afraid of her and I never go out anywhere! Please tell me what to do!

[nuguy1]

Look I just got out of a "toxic" situation (for a lack of cleaner words) a lot like yours
It consumed my life and I was very close to suicide
I realized that suicide is like gluttony (I came up with that on my own its not like one of the seven sins or whatever), it's the most selfish thing to do
First you need to clear your head for about fifteen minutes and think practically and come up with all your options
I don't know any of your options in the bahamas, but you do
You must do something, but don't do anything to hurt anyone (get your mom in trouble, dad in trouble, call police) unless she actually comes at you with something( knife, bat, rake)
My best advice is to do something, think about, be smart and... about the running away thing be sure that you have connections to someone in the US before going there, you're not 18 and you wouldn't have a permanent address or a license etc... just be sure to have a relative or friend to back you up. And get involved with a club or organization and stay away from your house as often as possible(while doing something good, not partying or whatever) these are my most practical tips