So me and my ex had been together for nearly a year. We have broken up probably 12 times, but she would always take me back or come back. I really love her with all of my heart,but this time she broke up with me out of the blue. She said that she no longer has feelings for me and doesn't like me in that sense anymore. I'm having a hard time coping with this because I basically let myself become vulnerable to her. It's been one week and 4 days since the break up. At first she said she didn't want to talk or see me again. I tried my hardest to ignore her but caved this last Friday. She wouldn't answer or respond to me. Then she texts me on Sunday and apologizes to me. She wrote I'm an awful person so sorry that's all I wanted to say. I responded with something random like the scarf you gave me is really warm. Then, Monday she texts me a song by Atmosphere called Wild Wild horses. I didn't really get it and I hate atmosphere by the way, so I didn't even respond. I've been feeling so lonely and worthless,so this morning I called her and we talked. She seemed interested in talking to me. Anyway she basically said she has no feelings for me and doesn't want to get back together. I begged her to see her one last time and she was like I donno. I was like I need it for closure I want to give you back this ceramic heart you gave me etc. She said she didn't want it and to throw it out. I begged her to see me, and get coffee with me for like half an hour. She kept saying it wasn't a good idea and that she doesn't want to. As direct as she was trying to sound I made her laugh a couple of times and she seemed to be having fun, but for some reason she kept trying to suppress her feelings for me. I love her and miss her and got her to say yes. In fact I'm going to meet with her right now. I want advice on what to do and how to handle this. I really want her back and I'm leaving right now to maybe change her mind although I promised her I wouldn't mention the relationship and that this meeting is purely for closure. Please help guys!