I don't know what to do with myself!
My ex boyfriend and I have been together for 3 years and the past like 6 months or so we've been having problems and we were kind of together kind of not one day and there this one girl that he said he was friends with and she kept coming up contacting me and I never wanted to believe it and 2 days ago I was in the car with a friend and he pulled behind me in that girls car and I pulled on the side of him honked let it be known I was there and Ive had her number but I never wanted to call her but in that car I was so mad so I called and screamed and let it be known I was still with him and then me and him broke up up and I told him Im done but I really don't want to be done I was us to still be together and he doesn't realize what he's doing to me I then found out that he got her pregnant there having a baby and together they live together and I just want to go crazy and kill someone cause he knows that the one think I want is for us to be together for the rest of our lives and have a kid he got me pregnant like a year and 3 motnhs ago but I had a misscarrage. And I keep telling him he doesn't no what he's doing and how much its hurts me and he keep saying I'm sorry you're my best friend I never wanted it to happen this way and I just don't know what to do cause he came to my house yesterday and we ended up having sex and I care cause I know he's going back to her but I just want edleast one part of him like I know he has feelings for me but the timeing sucks and I don't know if I should just forget about it and move on but I feel like I'm going to die and I don't want to move on cause I want to be with him but it hurts either way so I figure if I hurt when I'm with him I'm guna hurt anyway and I just don't know what to do.