I have come here because I don't know what to do about myself anymore. I lie a lot, about anything and everything and no matter how hard I try or tell myself that it's wrong, I can't stop. I know I'm a pathological liar. My mood swings have always been bad but they are so much worse now then they have ever been before. Sometimes I will talk really fast and make a lot of jokes and be on cloud 9 but then I will feel really depressed and realize how weird I was being and hate myself for it. I get irritated easily over stupid things and I always think people hate me or are out to get me when they probably aren't. I can't concentrate on things and I have a really bad memory. I having an eating disorder and a drinking problem. I don't really let people get very cole to me and when they do I push them away or end it or they end it because they start to see me for what I really am. I feel like there is no hope for me and I truly hate myself. I wish I was somebody else who isn't as ed up as I am. I wish I could have somebody else's life but I know I can't and when I think about my life in long term I truly dread it. I am not a good person and I feel like a strain or an annoyance to my family and what very few friends I have. I think I have bipolar disorder or maybe something worse and I honestly have no idea what to do.
