Hello all,
I am a new member of this community... I had come across this community while looking for the answer to my question in life... I might bore you with my story as it's been a 5yr story... Well to state my problem...
I have become a victim of so-called one-sided love... which kills a person to core... I met this guy on the 1st day of my Job... we joined together,got to know each other and started sharing a relation more than just a colleague... we were Good friends there on... One day I realized that I have fallen for him madly and gone crazy... till date I could not think of a reason why I love him so much and have fallen for him... I told him about my feelings... he took it casually and told me honestly that he could not see me more than a friend and since we spoke different languages, his Mom would not accept me as she is orthodox and would not accept any girl from another community...
I was OK thinking I can convince him as I knew how much he values my relation... I used to keep talking about my feelings to him over phone and msgn so he slowly started ignoring me... experienced lot of hurtings and tears... one day I get to know he is going around with another girl from the same Process who is of his community... I could not take it only... that night I cried in the cab itself till I reached home... it was like almost every person in office knew about my feelings for him now when he started going around with another... I could not explain... so embarrassing it was to go to office and see them together... I had stopped talking to him all these while... but I knew that the girl he was with is a flirt, not sure how he fell for her, but I knew he was true in his feelings...
as days passed... she showed her true color ditched him, quit the Job and returned to her home town, got married and settled... in between he was promoted, I moved through a different process... but when I knew that he was broken, I called him up after a long time... spoke to him, consoled him as I could not see him like this... though he did not accept my love, we were friends once... then again we started speaking normally... so tried my luck this time by asking if he felt my love... he said no, and he was indeed surprised that I had the feelings for him even after 3years... he said Im getting deeper into my feelings, I can always be your good friend and not more than that... if you need we can be friends, if not I shall stop talking to you... I told him I cannot be like that... so he stopped talking...
now its almost 2 years he stopped talking... from then I did not get a chance to see him often.. even If we get to see each other we would not talk... but I message him whenever I would feel like talking to him... have not got a single response till now... I introduced him to my sister when we were friends... so they know each other and they are good friends... he had come for my sis wedding, He had come home to see my sister when she was back after her baby shower...
That's when I had a shock of my life the 2nd time... He said he is getting engaged in a week... I was so unsure on how to react in front of my sis and parents... I just walked away from there... he came again even to see my sister's baby... then he was already engaged... he was showing his would-be photo to my sis and my Mom... he also told his marriage is on Jan 31st 2013. I was speechless... it was OK for me when he didn't accept my love... but he could have at least thought how it hurted when he was happily sharing the pic and telling them about the marriage... he is least bothered... I wonder if he would no how much Im suffering after hearing that...
He is still not spoken to me... I wonder if he would ever... Im so confused and lost... its 5yrs I have been in love with him... so much of hurtings and tears... at the end I have waited 5yrs for nothing... still not able to forget him... its like even if he comes back to me, the next sec I will go behind him... but this one side feeling sucks... you have everything to give... but the other person is not ready to take it... Im struggling to sleep every night... I stay awake till 3 or even 4 every day... his memories are killing me so much... I wish he just knows how bad Im feeling... :(:(:(
