I just recently got into a relationship with this really awesome girl. She really sweet and really caring. Awesome person. However, I have a lot of baggage.
I grew up with a lot of insecurities with people, family, and friends telling what I can and can not do. I guess I was kind of the black sheep of the family. It took me years to force myself out of that mindset that I was nothing. I actually have accomplished way more of my dreams/goals than all of those naysayers.
However, I know that the scars of my past still haunt me.
I am really scared that I am going to lose my girlfriend because I think she will soon realize that I am not as cool as her.
I just recently got into doing the things that I wanted to do when I was a kid. She on the other hand is one of the most confident girls I have ever met in my life so she tells me about her snowboarding trips or rock climbling activities.
I just think that is so cool. I always wanted to do those activities. I am sure she would excited for me. I am just insecure that I am not good enough for her. She seems to have her life in order. I on the otherhand is still discovering myself and fighting these insecurities of mine.
She obviously likes me. She is really sweet and caring. The only thing that I do well though is not being afraid to show her how much I like her as well. So, I surprise her. I am really affectionate. She always told me that I am the sweetest boy she has ever met. So, I have no reason to feel this way but I feel that in due time she is going to find someone better and I am going to get hurt.
How do I shake this feeling that I am not good enough for her? I don't want to lose her because of this...
