I pushed my boyfriend away, when will he be back?
Well the story is I push him away so far away that he took his stuff and moved in his friend's house. We were living together. I would nag about him spending one night at his friend's house for guy time. I don't know why I would do that. I had everything made here a caring heart boyfriend everything, until my mouth push him away. I couldn't even think of anything to keep him to stay I just try showing him.
On Friday I met up with him before he went to work and we talked about how he didn't see a future etc. His heart was torn. I fought for him. I know I made some stupid mistakes. I told him I will make you happy I understand how important it is to go out and spend time with friends . Can't always be around each other. He agrees to give us other shot. And now we are back together he cares for me and doesn't want to see both of us in pain. But he not ready to move back in with me.. He will see me on his days off. But I don't call him “Why your phones are off?”. I know I can't be pushy. I know I can't always go up and wait around until he comes to work. If this is going to work he has to see me too. I guess space is what was needed. Now we both have it.
But now I'm going have to find a roommate to help with rent. Wasn't about rent or money. I enjoy his company I enjoy being with him. I guess we learn from our mistakes and won't do it ever again. Day by day right? But I also have to work on myself too I know I can't sit around and wonder when he going to come by? I know he will when he can. Once a week, twice a week for a few hrs. he can't spend the night he has a cat to take care of.. I have my dog. I wish I can just go back in time and not say a word or push him away. But what can I do now. Since we are back together and trying, let him come to me?
