So I've got this found group, all of them heading to become doctors and me sitting there planing where I'm going travelling first after uni (don't get me wrong work is important I just want to be more 'free' the way I go about it all).
All of them come from stable backgrounds but mine was dodgy, broken home, drugs, fags, guys... the works.
We've been best mates for about 3 years now and slowly its all started going wrong, I met a man ten years older than me and they all disproved, so I stop seeing him, then I started smoking and they all think I'm a **** so I'm hiding that from them... I'm always talking to knew guys and loving it but only recently have I stopped telling them about who I'm talking to because they all disprove but then when they find out I get a bollocking anyway for keeping it from them.
I'm seriously trying to live a care-free, happy life after all the **** with my parents messed up divorce and me bringing crap upon myself, yet they keep giving it to me from left right and center, I bought one of the girls and I (in this 'group') to go see Jersey Boys but I'm convincing myself it wasn't 'buying affection'!
Everyone (outsiders) tell me their **** friends and that I'm maturing way to quickly for them, because I've started to realize I get on so much better meeting new people socializing and partying alone. But I don't want to be alone, I just want them to except me? I want to hang around with loads of people not just one set bunch.
Am I fighting a lost cause? Should I just grin ad bare it and it'll fade? Its just they always have a go when I'm with other people... the strange thing is its only me that gets told if I'm annoying anyone, everyone else seems to go off for a few days and do it scott free.. I don't understand it?
Someone with any understanding please help?
