Why can't I stop thinking of her?
I met this girl about three to four months ago when I got hired at a restaurant. She worked at a coffee shop nearby and I met her the first time I got coffee there. When our eyes first met I knew this girl was different than any other I had met before. I ended up asking her out then and there (something I've never attempted, though being 23 I don't see why not) and she accepted getting a drink with me sometime. We get involved, keep it open, start 'dating'. Everything is wonderful, I can tell her about anything, share with her my deepest and most private thoughts, confide in her things I would not tell anyone else. Eventually, after many nights together and frequent talks about our situation we run into each other at a friend's house, except she's not there to see me, she's there to see his brother. Now yes, this bothered me, but I didn't let it get to me. I excused myself and went home, being late anyway and work the next day I thought I'd get some rest. We talked the next day and I told her that I loved her, which is in fact very true. She called me courageous and said that we were 'cool'. Later that evening she called me up and broke things off.
I can't stop thinking about her. We only knew each other for a few months, however it seemed like an eternity of bliss to me. She still wants to be my friend, but my feelings are very intense, however I reluctantly agreed. We have only seen each other twice since then, winter break being upon us and her going north to see family.
I am alone in my house on this winter break and I can't think of anything but her. Every waking second is filled with her smile and every moment asleep dreams conjured of her touch and kiss. I'm in complete anguish. This is a depression greater than any other I've experienced in my life. What can I do to stop thinking about her? What can I do to stop loving her?