I am exhausted and trampled right now. I had temp custody of my children for a year and a half after their dad and I separated. THen the divorce hearing rolls around and he gets full custody! He has had them now for almost four years and every time I think about it, it makes me sick. The judge never gave a reason as to why he made that choice. SInce then I have learned that my ex and his wife are telling me children that I don't want them, that I'm psycho, and no telling how many other things. I get them every other weekend, and every time they come down they tell me different things about what's going on at their dads' house. He's an alcoholic and drinks and drives with those babies in the car. He has a suspended license and still drives. I found out that he's been leaving the two older boys at home ALONE! (8 and 6 years old) I feel like nothing I do is getting anywhere. My family keeps saying that what is done in darkeness will come to light and I have tried to hold on to that all these years, but my faith is weakening every time someone looks the other way. Please tell me what I can do to a step in the right drection because what I've been trying is getting no results!!