My ex and I broke up about 6 months ago and I can't stop thinking about her. We were together for almost three years and We were long distance for 1 year. My time was short because I am in grad school taking night classes and working part-time on weekends so she felt neglected.
We argued for 2-3 months about her wanting me to call her more often and each time I tried to explain to her how difficult that would be seeing as we were on different schedules. One night, she questioned if I thought she was the "one", and I told that I thought so, that I felt that way, but the way she was handling the distance between us concerned me, and she took offense to that.
Finally, I agreed to at least text throughout the day to say hi and I did that for a month back in December. During this time she became inconsistent, not returning phone calls or being short at times when we did speak. When the New Year came around, she broke up with me stating that I was too late and that she just needed space. This really angered me and we went back and forth for 3 months before she said it was completely over and she only wanted to be friends, which I told her would not work for me.
Mad at myself for giving her so much power but at the time I felt like I could trust her, like we had a bond that was unbreakable. I also found she was blasting me on the internet stating that I never made time for her and her heart doesn't love me anymore. I know I don't need this, but even through all of that I miss her like crazy. She was my first love, and fit in great with my family and friends, as did I with hers.
I have tried keeping myself busy with school, exercise, prayer, keeping a journal and family. But most times, I am distracted and unmotivated. What can I do to put this all behind me for good since I know she is not thinking of me in the same way.
