So ashamed of my thoughts...
OK so I'm pregnant, some of you may know, I'm only 6weeks gone, but I'm having a lot of anxiety because I'm hoping for a girl and when I think of having a boy I'm not excited about it! What is wrong with me? Shouldn't I be just hoping for a healthy baby no matter what the sex? I feel so terrible about this... im scared that when I do have it and it's a boy I will get post natal depression and not bond with it or just not bond at all, I suffer from severe depression and anxiety and have had to come off my meds until I'm finished being pregnant, not sure if this info is relevant but it will be the cause of most of the anxiety I'm feeling, but why am I not excited at the thought of a baby boy? I feel like a bad mother already :(