I really think I need to see a psychologist about some issues I want to work through in my life including what I think might be depression. However, I'm under my dad's insurance and would need their help to find a doctor and to pay. I've always acted normal him and he doesn't suspect anything which is why I'm nervous to bring up this issue because I think I would upset him and he's just getting off a vicodin addiction and seems to be taking up drinking and smoking again. Even if I could tell my dad, I would be uncomfortable because he would then tell my step mom and I don't feel comfortable enough with her to feel OK about her knowing. How do you think I should go about this gently? Or should I just tough it out(my current plan) until I can handle this by myself?

Why do you have to say you want to see someone for depression? That's a privacy issue, so why disclose the reason? If he insists on knowing why, give him an associated problem.

Why psychologist? You can get good results from a licensed counselor or social worker whose efforts your dad's insurance will cover. Plus, they're cheaper. :D

You have a couple of options here:

Talking to your dad about it:
Go to your father and tell him that lately you have been having a hard time dealing with certain things that are going on around you and you feel really strongly that you need to talk to someone who can help you through it. Be honest and vulnerable, and as long as his addictions etc are not consuming him, he will help you explore these options.

Not talking to your dad about it:
If your father seems difficult to reach and you are having a hard time figuring out how to reach him, you will need to talk to someone else. Here are some options:
*A trusted teacher
*A trusted family member
*A trusted adult family friend
*A school counselor
*You can call a nearby church and ask to speak to the pastor

All of the above should listen to you with an open ear and heart. They will be able to help you figure out what next step to take. A counselor at school or church can arrange consistent meetings with you to help you through whatever is bothering you and if they are unable, they should be able to help you better understand how to approach your father, or even approach him for you.

If you are feeling down and not yourself, don't ignore it. Do something about it.

There is also a supplement called st johns wort that is completely natural and may help you through it. It has worked wonders for my 10 year old son.