How Do I Get Over Being Cheated On By My Fiance'?
My fiance' and I had a very small, very insignificant disagreement and went a day without speaking. It was very hard on me, because we are (were) extremely close and loving to each other. I thought he was probably in the same amount of pain, if not more, as I was not having communicated for a day. I drove to his home this morning to surprise him and make up; he was with a woman. I am shocked, devastated, broken, lost and confused. I can't eat, function, hardly be alone in my head with my own thoughts. I feel out of control with anxiety, fear, desperation, all that - things I normally don't feel. Thoughts of suicide are constant. I am a single mom and my kids need me to function like a parent but I think I just would rather die. What can I do to handle this pain? I hate him, but I love him - I will never EVER let him see me again or touch me or anything. I truly despise him but can't get memories out of my head of happy times we have shared! This is such a shock - he never gave me a clue he was capable of hurting me like this. I can't believe it was him!!