I am so angry with my boyfriend/exboyfriend I don't how to let it go.
I met my ex boyfriend on may 30 we met online and started dating. I really fell for this guy, he was everything I was looking for, but there was some added issues. He had been married before, and was going through a divorce(they still are not divorced) and she cheated on him and is having a baby next week and it may or may not be his, all of which he was honest with me about. I attempted to go see him over July 4th but entrusted in friends who decived me and avoided letting me see him. I then moved out to where he was, and I have not seen him by my own choice. WHen he gets mad he says things he doesn't always mean. He says mean and hurtful things that really hurt me and I put up a wall. I recently lost my father and I have been emotionally drained. After two weeks of trying to see me and me not letting him we broke up. We have still kept talking and he told me to try and make it right. I am so in love with him but in the past two weeks I found out he lied to me about something. He was actually dating someone when we met and he broke up with them to be with me, and that caused a new issue in my head because every guy I have been with has cheated on me. He also told me he wrote a poem for me that he did not write for me and told me he did. He has been so cold and heartless, and I know I can't ask him to forgive me for not seeing him but how do I begin to forgive him for what he did by lying to me and not telling me things? I want to fix this with him but I am so mad and I don't know where to begin to make it better. Please help? Because I do love him and I know seeing him will help him but it won't help me I need some direction.