How should I feel about this?
Hey everyone. Please take your time to read this, all answers will be very appreciated. :)
So, I have this girlfriend, we have been dating for about 7 months now and Im not going to say specific ages but we are both teens with the same age, both virgins and love each other very much.
About 2 months into the relationship I asked her about sex, and she said she simply wasn't ready for it, I thought sure, no big deal.
Last week ( 5 months later ) I asked her again about it, and she said no again, I though OK she is really not into sex, its not the end of the world, therefore I asked if she wanted something softer like fingering or if she could give me a handjob for example and she still said no, she couldn't even think about such thing. And this is were it started getting weird, I mean sure she may not be ready for sex but what would be the problem of giving me something like a handjob if we are 7 months into a relationship and we are very close to each other, its not like I have any diseases or something.
Anyway, some minutes after the conversation I asked her when she kissed me and cuddled with me, if she did it for pleasure or simply for love, she answered that it was for love only. What should I think of this? Basically it means that she never took any kind of pleasure for me or ever felt any kind of physical attraction for me and does it all for love, am I right? I know this may be a positive thing. But I also know that she is sometimes horny when she looks at her favorite movie stars etc... which means that there are some men that attract her, why doesn't she feel the same of me if Im her boyfriend?
It took me a lot to get to the point where id decide to ask this kind of question online, please help.
P.S. She also explicitly said that she wasn't going to feel ready anytime soon, which makes me kind of sad, how should I react?