I have been through bouts of depression and unfortunately I am going through one now. I generally deal with stress with a level head, but things have become over whelming over the past few months. I took on new responsibilities at work and the deadlines are killing me. My 13 y/o son broke his collar bone and is out of sports and activities for 6-8 weeks. I feel helpless when I look at him because I can't fix it! His grades have dropped since he missed school with the break, so I am trying to help him with his school work. His Dad (my ex) has become more of a pain than normal. We usually have a good relationship, but since the break, the grades dipping and our son's choice of high school next year, I feel like he's working against me instead of with me on anything relating to our son. I keep thinking he's going to try to take our shared custody away among other things.
My current husband is a saint because living with me and my mood swings must be horrendous. I am trying positive thinking, that seems to work sometimes, I'm trying to exercise a little more, but honestly I can't stop thinking about things. It is hindering my work because all I can think of is how pitiful my son looks and what could I have done to prevent the injury and how can I make it heal faster so he can go back to being active. I keep thinking that my ex is going to try to take full custody of him because I'm depressed and my current husband will leave because I can't think of anything else.
I don't want to go on anti-depressents, the last time I did I became a stepford wife and hated it. I just want the constant worry to go away!
Anybody know of a way to shut out thoughts and concentrate on living?