Im in need of help. I grew up in an abusive household, where all I knew was argueing, fighting, hitting, yelling, and breaking things. & Ive been w/ this guy for a year now.. everything was fine till about 4 months ago when my anger got the best of me. I never really noticed that I had this side to me or that my childhood affected the way I am now, until one day I went crazy around my boyfriend. We got into it about something, and I got so mad I literally couldn't control myself. I didn't have one of these episodes for about a month, but now I find myself doing this more and more often. My boyfriend is such a kind, giving person. And he don't deserve someone to treat him like I do. Also, now that I've went "off" on him a few times, I find him disrespecting me more and more often. I can defiantly see how my attitude is breaking us up. And that's the last thing I want to happen because I love him so much. We live together and I'm working two jobs. We have so much to offer each other, but I'm ruining for the both of us. I really need help.