"...she told me to forget my feelings for her over the summer. I did. But they came back and I couldn't help it. She said she wasn't afraid to love me anymore...I can't even describe how happy that made me. I told you i wanted to kiss you again. Not because i felt something. Because i wanted to feel something the second time. But i realized it doesn't work that way. Traci feels right to me. It makes me happy to be near her. "
And that's what he told me when he broke my heart
The story behind it is
I've like this guy since my senior of high school
At first I didn't like him but my friend Traci liked him but at the time he really thought she was too wild... at this time he liked me but I didn't know it
So I graduated
While I was a freshman he and Traci began to date but it didn't last long that year
But he still had feelings for her I came back summer to confess to him
He said he still had feelings for me so we began and little summer love(no sex)
However I had to go back to school and now that I'm back he is now going back with traci
He is now 18 and I'm about to be 20
Traci is 17
I'm so confused...
It seems to me like he doesn't know what he wants but
He chose her again instead of waiting for me... like I was for him
I was working so hard to get a car so I could see him...
Traci by the way is one of my closest friends and she is a lot like me accept for wild and confident... she says she isn't afraid to love him... this saying after having just broke up with her last boyfriend a week before... argh she has everything!
Is he truly in love with her?:confused:
I have my doubts... but I don't want to hold onto those I just want hi to be happy.. but with me dammit! I know I can appreciate him more and respect him and give it my all
But is that too much?
Or since I'm about a three hour drive away is it just hopeless
Should I move on?
And why can't I have something ever? I've always crashed and burned when ever it came to a relationship! I don't think I love him but why does my heart hurt so bad!
Thanks... :o