It’s been awhile. I honestly think that I am going crazy. I mentioned earlier that my ex of 7 years was getting married. Well it was this Saturday, and I almost died. I don’t want him back, because he treated me very badly. But I’m not sure how to react, how to think, what to do. I did mention that I have no family, and that my circles of friends are limited. I’m from a small city and it’s really difficult to make friends. Unfortunately I did not take your advice, I did make contact with this other guy, but I must say I’ve been good, haven’t spoken to him in a while, and have deleted his numbers. The thing is my only friend, announced that she is getting married, end of the year, after knowing the guy for about 6 months. Now, I’m happy for her, but suddenly I the single one – are not important at all. They don’t have time for me; they make plans without me etc. I know that she is emerging on this new journey, and that her life with her man is important, but I’m the friend who was there for many many many sad times. I feel neglected, I feel lonely, I feel demoted, and I don’t know how to get rid of this feeling. I also want to get married; I’m fed up of waking up alone every single day!! I’m trying to stay positive; I’m trying to see the good in every day, but I JUST CAN”T!!
Some people might call this depression, and guess what? I KNOW its depression, so I picked up the phone the other day, phoned a doctor and made any appointment for later this month. First step?? I know this was a good thing, but I’m tired of waiting for things to happen, I need my life to be sorted now… I want to feel loved. Anyway…. Still 2 weeks to go, please help me, to stay sane.
Some advise to all the people out there, that want to go back to there exes etc, etc. DON’T!! I’m prove that it doesn’t work, it’s call a breakup because it’s broken. It’s so true. I should have listened and stay away. We are worth so much more, and I’m in the dumps now, but I tell you what, give me a couple of months, and I will be back on my feet again. I know I’ll have down days. But you know what? God created us, and made no trash, (why then, do we allow people to treat us that way)
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