Life is more complicated than it has to be
There's so many unnecessary roadblocks. So much wasted time. All anyone cares about it seems is money and getting there's. I hate it.
I don't know what to do, and everything seems impossible.
I mean, there are options, but each option involves a lot of risk.
All I care about is travelling. I don't care if I'm rich. I don't care if I ever marry. I don't care if I live past 50. I just want to see and experience as much as I can before I die.
option 1: Spend several months volunteering abroad and learning interesting and potentially useful skills.
risks: There is no guarantee of a job. Many positions, the best positions, still require a degree. The monetary expense is $7,000-$10,000. It is a long time to spend on a chance.
benefits: Experience and skills. The chance to live in another country and another culture for a considerable amount of time. Miracle providing, the chance to live and work abroad with a salary.
option 2: Return to college for a major in marine biology.
risk: Of the three colleges I am interested in, I only have a chance at one before I am twenty as it's past the application due date. It involves a lot of money/debt, pending financial aid, and potential rejection. I'd need recommendations when I've never been the most present student, though I always managed A's and B's and have a spotless record. I was always kind of in the background and have no extra curriculars. I'm horrible at math. I tried college once and had a near breakdown. I'm not a strong swimmer, the ocean and the unknown has always kind of frightened me. I've heard competition is fierce and jobs are scarce.
benefits: Assuming I got in, I'd be pursuing a major that, after six years of study, could lead to a career involving research, travel, and conservation abroad with a decent salary-assuming I can find work.
option 3: Join the Navy
risk: It's a huge commitment. I'm more of a pacifist. I'm not sure I have what it takes. I hate the industrialism of it (the cold, metal ships and planes).
benefits: I wouldn't have to wait. I'd receive full health coverage. I could earn tuition for college. I could travel all over the world, and on leave, I could travel at a reduced cost.
Can anyone help put this in perspective for me? I need to bounce ideas of people who will be objective. My parents are all for anything I decide, and my friends are obsessed with college. It just feels like time is running out to make a decision (big factor in my dropping out; the pressure). I know this should probably be in education or careers, but I am most familiar with this board and people who follow it know my history. If it gets moved, it gets moved.
*I know only I can make the decision. That's not what I am asking for-just information, advice, constructive criticism, personal experience. I'm trying so hard to find a path and not just ditch everything and hop the next bus to New York City. I probably shouldn't submit this, but..