Never dumped a girl.(long read)
I've been with my g/f for a little over a year.. Everything was going good and I don't know why but I just changed. I'm 22 and she's 19. I'm attracted to her but lately I've been really attracted to other girls. My girlfriend is extremely emotional, to the point where she tells me she Won't lose me. She's going back to school in the fall an hour away and plans to get a job up there.. I am starting school again and I work nights.. So we both are going to be very busy..
I have never left someone in my life.. I've been dumped and I know how it feels.. I don't think I could put someone through that... One big problem is I took her virginity and I'm basically her first boyfriend and first person she has fell in love with...
I've been very busy the past year but my sched recently changed and I have been hanging out with friends more and going to clubs and partying.. Obviously she can't because she's not 21.
Never in my life have I cheated on someone, and the other night I made out with a girl when I was really drunk. I feel ashamed and like a total because of it... But on the other hand I feel bad because I have been attracted to so many other girls...
I don't know if I should just wait till school and see how things go.. Maybe because it's summer I just am having this urge to be single and party more.. I don't know what's going on with me... I don't even know what to do right now... I don't want to hurt her at all. She is the nicest girl I have ever been with... Almost too nice and too emotional..
Please help.. I'm lost.. Also I know I'm a jerk for making out with that girl, but I could NEVER ever tell my g/f that.. It would break her heart... I would never sleep with someone else though.. I'm just so afraid to make a bad decision and regret it...
And I know the whole "" You need to end it now and not drag it out any longer"" speech.. I just don't think I can do it.. I've never done it...
This sucks!! :(:(:(
Any responses are greatly appreciated