I loved my best friend, now I need to try to forget her
I am/ was a freshmen in college. I went to a small division two school and loved every minute of it, but I now transferring schools cause of money. Now when I attended this smaller school I had a best friend. I mean she was perfect. Blonde, southern, played volleyball, loved sports, and was the sweetest person I had ever known. Over the course of the year we automatically clicked with one another and became really close. I never had a friend who was a girl who I was really close to like I was with her. We could tell each other anything. Well I grew to fall in love with her. Yes, I used the term Love, even though we never dated. I would have done anything for this girl, taken a bullet for her, fought for her, etc. In my mind she was perfect. I would spend hours upon hours talking to her on Facebook, in person, or on the phone. Now she had hooked up with one of my close friends, but she was drunk and she had regretted it. So one day I told her how I felt and she came out and said she never saw anyone at the college as more then a friend and that time she did hook up with my friend it was a mistake. SHe still said she wanted to be my friend. ANd our friendship even grew closer after that. But as the weeks passed I couldn't get her off my mind. I wanted to be with her. Hell, my grades suffered because all I could concentrate was on her. SO one night, the 2nd to last weekend I would spend at the college I got very drunk, like completely and utterly hammered and I told her I loved her. After that it became very awkward, I couldn't talk to her even when she tried to talk to me. So after my finals Iw ent to this bar/ club where everyone was going to be to say good bye to everyone. And a group of my friends came up to me and told me she wanted to talk. So we spent 15 minutes talking. She said she knew I was a great guy and that I would find the one, but I told her that the one was her. SHe told me though she was talking to one of my good friends, this kid made sure I didn't die when I was hammered, so I was happy she had found a nice guy. But I still can't get her off my mind. EVery day I see her on Facebook I want to talk to her. I want to call her. I want to text her every day. I don't know how to get her off my mind. SO how do I do it?