What is happening with me
Hey I'm a 16 yr old boy.. I know that I am different than anyone.. everyone says that I am smart and I understand issues and ideas more complex than my age... everyone asks for my wisdom and I have friends that are much older than me.. I appear to be strong for everyone but I deeply know that I have a lot of weak points.. I feel that I am cursed because every time I need to do a thing for my own benefit ,it can't happen.. if I say that this looks pretty ,this pretty thing will be damaged.. if I say what a wonderful day ,the day will automatically turned into a bad one.. if I say anything it will turn into me... once I said for my neighbor that you have good health and the following day she entered hospital because of heart attack... it is not accidents nor coincidences.. and when I asked for help from a priest, he told me to pray and I pray a lot but nothing happen.. I always go to church and pray for all saints but still my problem is increasing day after day... I can't show my feelings because I am sure something bad will happen and sometime you can't control what you are thinking so it just happens... and I tried to think in the bad way thinking that I can over smart myself but still I can't stop what happening with me.. is it a curse or am I born like this?what should I do?I am fed up with myself.. I am just bad luck for all people around me and for myself...