Too much anger, sadness mixed emotions
I'm suppose to get married July 31, 2010 and if things continue to go this way I doubt this day will ever come. Not meaning I will kill myself I'm not suicidal but I don't think my fiancé will stick around that long if I can't manage to pull myself back together. July 9 2008 my daughter was born the night I got release from the hospital due to the birth of my beautiful baby girl my father passed away. Now that was something I held to my heart very badly when it happened. I had finally over come the death of my dad when suddenly my little nefew that was 26 days old passed away... although I was still having a hard time I was getting better. I just recently found out that I am losing my godmother, that's it's just a matter of time before she goes. I'm always frustrated and angry but I'm not angry towards everyone. The only person that sees my anger is my fiancé. I've tried to talk to him but it doesn't work. When I was trying to get over the death of my dad and was talking to him he told me he couldn't do anything he's gone he's gone. Although that is the truth he is gone but I needed an approce a bit easier than that. Now I don't talk to no one, I hold in all my hurt, I always cry when I'm alone but then I blow up on my fiancé with every little word he tells me. I need some advice. I know I can't bring them back or prevent anyone from dying I know I got to move on but every time I do something else happens and brings it all back.. I just don't want to reck my relationship because I've lost loved ones and I try so hard to not get angry at him but nothing seems to work. I need a bit of help