Distance issues, troubled relationship.
Well, me and my ex-girlfriend had been together for 2 years. About 6 months ago, she moved to a University (about 150 miles away). It was her dream to go to this particular university, and although it pained me to see her go, I supported her every step and put on a brave face.
We struggled at the start, and we missed each other tremendously, much more than I thought I would. About 2 months ago we started having problems. I have no idea what made me do it, but I just stopped bothering, it sounds bad. I just got lazy, I just ran out of time, I just kept making excuses up as to why I couldn't go and see her this week. These problems recently took a turn for the worse. I found myself looking at other women, and felt unhappy with my current relationship. After drastic attempts to save the relationship on both parts, I decided that I wanted to see other people. I've never been a person to cheat on anyone, so I found the courage and decided it was only fair to travel down and tell her how I felt and end the relationship as best I could.
Another spanner in the works, I'm off travelling in June. I am going to japan, so this will be more than just 150 miles.
When I arrived I resisted the urge to hug her which was now more over-powering than ever. We talked for hours about how we could go on a break and be just friends for awhile. I agreed to stay for a couple of days. They were the best 2 days of my life. I had such a good time and I fell back in love with her. I remembered why we were fighting for this relationship, what it was all for. We still decided to be friends, as we can't base a relationship on 2 days.
I love her to bits, do I tell her I'm sorry and I want a relationship? I can't stop thinking about her its driving me insane. We agreed to be friends for awhile, and I hate myself, I'm such a fool I let things go - I was lazy and it cost me. She tells me she loves me, which is a start I suppose.
