I Can't Survive WITHOUT Love.
All I've ever wanted from life is to be loved. I absolutely ADORE being in long term relationships, and when I'm not in them, I spiral into a deep depression. Ya see, I have ACS, Adopted Child Syndrome... where I feel neglected and abandoned when people leave me or are mean to me. It's pathetic and irrational and I should really know better. BUT being my stupid- self, I can't seem to just... BE HAPPY BY MYSELF! I HATE MYSELF! It is soooooo frusterating to feel like I've come nowhere in the past couple years (I'm only 20 for s sake). I just feel like no one wants me... and it sucks... I don't even know what the hell I'm talking about... all I want is to be in love again. It's been like 4 months since I've been in an official relationship and I missss iiiittt soooo muchh.
God I am so retarted...
