It's either me venting on here right now... or I'm going to text him and regret it... Why do I still want him? F--- my life!
THANKS for not caring about me at all! Thanks for getting me hooked on you when I wanted nothing to begin with. I really appreciate how wonderful you were in the beginning only to change and start being an a__hole. Perfect! I love all the money I spent on you, all the things I did for you, and you know, I loved spending hours chauferring you around because you DON'T have a car, let alone your licence! Because I have nothing better to do with my time then to spend 2 hours driving you to work, then home, then pick you up and drive back home till you get your apartment. You're hungry? Sure, let me run out right away for you to go get you taco bell. I'll keep on buying your cigarettes too because you're out of money 2 days after you get paid when you live at home and have NO BILLS. No worries about my mortgage, car payment, school loans, bills, debts, etc... On my way to work and before I drive you home, don't ever offer to run in and get my coffee, I'll do it every time, even when you want something! Also, feel free to let ME pay for your $50.00 M--F 'n cab ride into town so you can drink ON ME all night, and sure, invite your friend and have me pay for his booze all night too. Why not! I'd love to work all night to cover YOUR tabs! Oh... and you don't have money to go out, so sure here's $100.00 because if you can't go out you are going to be grumpy all night. Great! And it's my fault that some dude hit on me in front of you, so of course you should be mad at ME! Because somehow that's my fault. And in your anger, why don't you attempt to smash your computer again because it didn't break the first time you whipped it off your desk. And maybe throw something else because one window isn't enough to break. After you have been working crazy hours, instead of finally spending time with me, you should instead go out with the guys from work because you got paid! Don't worry about the plans we had, I LOVE being ditched. And when that makes me snap and I break up with you because I can't take it anymore, don't try to stop me! Don't try to talk it out with me and see what is up. Instead, let me freak out and then by no means give me any closure. Let me come get my stuff, tell me you still love me... Then what would be really nice is if you call me in your drunken state at 3am only to give me hope, for nothing! Awesome! Then tell me a week later that you have no feelings left for me, I killed it. Right on. And hopefully your uncle will continue to hit on me! Because when we were together and he did, that wasn't enough, he needs to try again when we are broken up. I'm really into jumping to different family members you know!
