I can't believe I am writing this. I have been married for 22 years to a loving husband and we have 2 wonderful children. I plan on staying married to him for the rest of my life. My situation is that I have regrets over a past relationship with a boyfriend from 25 years ago. I heard he was divorced and I just had to see him. So I got in touch with him and we had 2 lunches. My husband knew about both lunches as I wanted to be honest with him. I just didn't explain the emotional toll it took on my heart. It was obvious that the connection between he and I was still there. Nothing happened, but it scared me and am confident it scared him too. We haven't been in touch since.

I am filled with an incredible amount of regret over what didn't happen between he and I "back then". I wish we could talk, there's so much I want to say and ask, but am afraid of where it would lead us and I will not allow myself to be unfaithful. My question is how can I get over this? I feel like I'm living a double life. The regret and sadness is overwhelming at times and I wish I could get him out of my mind. It's been 2 years and this broken hearted pain will not go away. I need to get back to my life and these unresolved feelings of sadness will not pass. Perhaps it's a mid-life crisis? Whatever the case, I need to get past this and I simply do not know how. Even prayer hasn't worked.

Don't live your life in regrets and what ifs and maybes.

Its so easy to look back on life and go we should have could have.

What matters is that those actions has led you to a wonderful husband and great kids.

Stay with what is Real and true.
And not make a fake reality in your head over past loves

Continue to stay away from him, and out of contact ,and look around at your blessings, whenever you think your missing something. My exes have always haunted me over the years, and it will pass, and be glad you only have one to worry about. I have several, and they just keep taking turns, and it never ends. ARGH!

Cut the ties with the ex.

Really, you have 2 kids ALREADY.

Don't mess their lives by going back to the past.