I have one amazing best friend, but I don't see her often at all because she works so much and I'm in school but we have been friends for almost seven years and I've never found another person like her. But while I'm here at school I've noticed that I can't make friends. Everyone here seems to not include me, but it's not it a mean way. Im just forgotten a lot and not thought of. My roommate gets calls from people everyday wo are susposed to be my friends too, but she just leaves without inviting me anywhere they go. Its like I have to force myself to hang out with them, but then it gets awkward, so I don't ask where she is going anymore, or try to make plans with anyone.
Meanwhile my other friend that I made here at school that I figured we were going to end up really good friends. We hung out a lot and laughed a lot a stupid stuff, but she is also rejecting me in some way. We still talk but its like she's slowely distancing herself with this other girl who is of her race, culture and religion. I ended up leaving for my sisters house one weekend because I noticed this was making me really upset and sad.
Not only is this happening here but I found that people act the same way back when I was in high school, minus the part of rumors going around about me. I say to myself it's just immaturity or they just aren't my kind of people to be around, but all my friendships here seem to start really well but then it seems like no one cares anymore. Im not a depressed person at all, I'm very happy and upbeat most of the time, but this is really making me feel like I'm alone here at school.
Why can't I find a good friend!!