My 32 year old son makes me feel gulity
I am writing this after another round of fights with my son. He makes me feel guilty and question my own sanity. My son is 32 years old and does not work and will not work He says he is to stupid to work but he has had jobs and I find out he gets fired for fighting.
I have kicked him out serval times and he calls back and need a place to stay some of his reasons are- he is living on the streets and it is cold ,he has had a fight with someone and need a save place to stay, he has just got out of jail for fighting and need a place to stay. I always say yes hoping that this is it he will straighten out and get a job and start taking care of himself but he never does. When he lives with me he does not like to clean up ,cook or do laundry. As the week goes on the house gets messyer and food disappears by wed. there is no food that is not frozen left no way for me to make lunches I keep buying more food I cant' keep doing this last week I spent over 200.00 and I went the last two days of work with no lunch I have to work overtime every week to make end meet and now I am worried about a layoff at work I have asked him for some money because he gets welfare and he has offered 100 a month not enough.I have asked him to do things and when I get home from work he says that I never did he said it in my head I did not say it . If I leave money around he take it and sayees I did not leave the money there. He has run my phone bill up and says he is trying to find a job or a place to stay so I should be happy . I could say more but I am confused am I getting old and forgetting some times he scares me he yells I don't want other people to here so I give him what he wants I don't believe he will hit me but I think a time will come when he may. I keep thinking I am doing something wrong that I yell at him too much and that is why he won't help me I am confused.I am going to send this with out correting anything because if I reread this I know I woun't send this:confused: :confused: