Should I wait or should I move on
Me and my husband was married for 5 yrs and he is 6 yrs younger than me. We never had a problem before until last yr when he cheated on me. Of course I don't trust him anymore but I accept him back since I said that nobodys perfect we all make mistakes. But all I ask from him is that he needs to work on my trust but he never did he even make it worst. April of this yr he started acting weird, a week before he told me that he wants to live by himself and be a bachelor again he was chatting with another lady from his work. I found it out 'cause every time I look in the computer he deleted it immediately. So I was suspecting that there's something going on. So we are now 5 months separated and he keeps calling me and still wants to hang out with me sometimes we even have sex. I try my best to not call him and make myself busy but it's just hard to forget about it. Especially of what he did to me. When he told me that we wants to move out he left me nothing he abandon me like a dog without a owner. He knows that I can't afford to have my own and he can since he just got promoted from his job as a manager and me just have enough for myself. I try to confince him if we can still work it out and talk about the things that maybe I didn't know what he wants. But he really wants to move out 'cause as he said that if we still going to be together then he will end up cheating on me again. So I let him go and respect his decisions. And he doesn't know that I still have access to his myspace and I can see that he is flirting with a lot of ladies. I just don't understand is that every time I ask him or talked about the divorce papers he don't want to do it. But I want to do it. Because as I can see that there's no more chance or hope for both of us to be together again. I was living in my friends house for a month in the garage since he won't let me live with him just until I found a place on my own. I was really upset of him I was so mad at him, so I let my friend call him and I listen to their conversation. My friend ask him if he can just let me stay there for like a week since I was looking and found a place but he will move out in like a week. This is what he told my friend, he don't want me to live with him 'cause what will his friends will say, what will they say if they found out that I'm living with him again. Such bull reasons. So I was crying 'cause after what I've done to him I give my all to him and this is all he do to me. I serve him like a prince I did everything in the house I mean evrything that allhe do is work and when he comes home he just play video games. But I talk to him the other night and I ask him straight if we still have a chance to be back together and he said that he thougt that were over already. So, I told myself that OK then thank you then now I will move on and I will do the paper work and then he didn't say anything. I don't have money to pay for a separation or divorce but I'm looking for a legal aid right now. I still love him but evrytime I think of all the things he did to me I get so mad at him.
I want to move on and let him go but it's really really hard. Until now he still calling me and he said that he don't want us to ended up like we will not talking and will not see each other anymore. I don't know if I'm still going to believe him but I can't say no. I'm trying but it's really hard.
What should I do? Please I need some advise.
Thank you,
jofran
