I really want a baby, my husband and I are very enthusiastic about having one, I baby sited a 6 month old 3 months ago for about a month, it seamed like a never ending story, at the beginning I loved to have him with me, it didn't bother me that I had to wake up in the middle of the night to change his diaper or to feed him, then, it started to get me annoyed, then a started to get crazy and I stopped paying attention to him, he cryied so much that I got to a point where I didn't care anymore, so I just stopped babysitting him.

Since that, I got so afraid that I could have my own and just get crazy or maybe even depressed. My family doesn't help either, they don't want me to get pregnant yet, the usual stuff, I am too young (20), I've been married for almost 1 year now and very happy, don't regret my decision. I really want my own but don't trust myself that I could take good care of my own. Sometimes I think that with my baby will be different because he/she will be mine, not somebody else's, my mom says that too, I love babies!!

Please advice me.

It's possible it will be different since it will be yours, but you are still young and your marriage is still new.

Why not take time to live life as a couple. Get to know each other and your quirks.

You still have plenty of time to have a baby. Let your love and your marriage mature for a couple of years before making such a life changing decision.