Well haven't been on here in a while last time I was on here I was crying over some girl... to this day I am... crying over some girl lmao Jokin! Thought I'd ease the tension first this might be a long read.
Well durng university I met this FANTASTIC girl. I was sitting with my friends one day and just saw this gorgous girl walk down the stairs. I was immediately hooked, I was saying in my head *I want that*. A week later I saw her in a lounge sat at her table and she was sick so I gave her a tissue to break the ice *might be korny* but guess what it worked. Found out she was in the same class as me and I never even knew. That day on we became closer and closer to each to then about a month later I asked her to be my girlfriend and she responded with a *yes* might I say I was dancing inside.
Now might I mention I am turning 20 soon and she just turned 22. The biggest problem of them all is that I am Caucassion and well she is Muslim. That's where the bomb hits me constantly. Things were rocky at first and course we had our problems but we worked through them. Now 6 months later we are in deep love with each other. We have so many things in common even small things and if we don't I find that she is my better half. She is such a fantastic woman she is everything I'm looknig for in a relationship, she is the best thing I have ever had so far in my life.
But that's the problem cause one she is not suppose to have ANY guy friends let alone dating a guy and esp not a caucassion one. All her other sibling were born and raised in Canada and her rents moved here before they were married. I am fiends with to her sisters and 1 of her brothers they are so sweet and easy going. If her dad or other brother found out they would literally chase me till I seathed to breathe, but then again I would do anythnig for her.
Right now her and I have it so good. We are in deep love with each other. Even times when all we do is find a nice little spot at school or even my bedroom we cuddle and kiss for 7 hours sometimes and we never get bored of it, she loves to hug me she says *you perfectly fit into my arms* and yet we still find 7 hours isn't enough time for us. I am so good to her even spoil her at times but that's cause she deserves it. She says *I came out of her dreams and I'm the best thing to happen to her and her best boyfriend ever!*
But the thing is, I don't know what to do. Though we have so many similarities there is one big difference. My parents already told me that if I would convert that they support me anf it's my life and they love me no matter what and to do what makes me happy, and yes I have though about it on more than one occasion.
I just feel trapped you know. That all those fairy tales that *LOVE WILL CONQURE ALL!* is all but fake and that this is the real world not anythnig to do with fairies. Maybe there are some success stories out there I don't know. I love my girlfriend a lot and she loves me back a lot to. Just I really dislike complications like this. Soemtimes I wish I could change the world but really what can one man do alone you know? I feel or even know that along the lines are paths will probably separate unless there is some miracle to happen, and I know I will be very hurt by it. I feel I should slowly start diging my grave for my fate. Maybe, maybe so. Maybe I'm just rambling on about nothing.
I am not going to leave my girlfriend for anything or anyone no amount of force I feel can or should stop me, but then I realise I am only human not a superhero. I love her a lot and she does back. But at what cost do I rish and out myself on the line to where does the line finally either join her and I, or fade in the darkness to come?