I kind of want to rant so here it goes...

I have no idea what I want to do with my life, and feel like I am to blame for being indecisive and not exploring what is really out there major wise. I haven't found the girl that I want and all my friends are with long term bfs/gfs already and will probably end up marrying them. I spent a year at a community college to transfer to a decent school I have never visited in my life. Because I am transferring, I have to find an apartment for my first year at a university and
will know absolutely no one (doing all of this just to live the "college life"). The girl that I really want is in love, and another that I would absolutely love to date is going to another college next year and is a year younger than me.

I want to go to a better college but I don't want to spend another year at the community college...

I basically wrote what came to mind, and I know it is a CF of info. But if you read it thank you =)

Hang in there! It's a normal youthful transition most of us encounter... Things do happen for a purpose!

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Originally Posted by Temphere

Hang in there! It's a normal youthful transition most of us encounter...Things do happen for a purpose!

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Thanks. I would like to think that things happen for a purpose but at the moment all I am thinking about is my future (career) and all that. I feel like college is the base of all that and if I want to do anything and make any kind of money I need to be at a good school. I am not a stupid person at all, and actually did quite well in H.S which is nationally ranked in the top 20 but I just didn't apply to any colleges at all. I feel like I'm in a room with 4 different doors, I can only choose one and all of them will change my life forever in some positive and negative ways, and the worst part is that I can't have an intermediate door where everything happens that way I want it to.

Frustration is an understatement for what I have been feeling for the past 2 hours strait, there fore I am going to go run and see if it clears my mind.

It sounds to me that you won't make any commitments. Actually, going out running is kind of a methphor for your life... when talk becomes serious, you run away.

I don't really have any thoughts about why people won't make a commitment to education or a social life, in your case, but you could Google commitment-inability to commit.

Best wishes in the future, :)

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Originally Posted by Choux

It sounds to me that you won't make any commitments. Actually, going out running is kind of a methphor for your life...when talk becomes serious, you run away.

I don't really have any thoughts about why people won't make a commitment to education or a social life, in your case, but you could google commitment-inability to commit.

Best wishes in the future, :)

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I don't think it's a lack of commitment, I think it's that I have no idea what I want to do. If I found something that I loved to do career wise I would commit in a second, but I have found nothing that interests me at the moment.


p.s- I go running to lose weight, not to run away from my problems.

Hmmm, a room with four different doors. But no intermediate door, where you get what you want. That is a beautiful description. Life feels that way to many of us at different times.

You are going to be just fine. It doesn't always feel like it though, huh?

I see that room, then I close my eyes and just feel it around me. All of the doors lead to the same place. They all lead out towards your destiny. None of them is a wrong choice, just a different way.

Don't be afraid to choose. Trust yourself.

You need to sit down and write out a plan
Write where you want to be in 5, 10, 20 years from now
Write different ways and the pros and cons of how you see yourself getting there
Separate the list according to essential or minor details
Example:
Living in dorm vs apartment -minor detail
Then pro and con list to determine dorm vs apartment

Wow... you seem overwhelmed!
I have been there and I am also a very indecisive person when it comes to my own life (I like to joke that it's a Pisces thing)... the best thing you can do is to not be afraid of failure!

I know what you mean by feeling like college is the foundation for your future and you basically want the best foundation possible... I totally get it!

You have to remind yourself that if you choose the "wrong" major initially you can change it! Even if you graduate and go into the "wrong" career You can go back to school! Life doesn't end when you make a mistake, in fact you can only become better if you're willing to learn from them.

Listen, I started college (a comm. College) after only 2 years of high school. Then I transferred to a university (like you I didn't even visit before going) because it was "the next step". Now, 2 years and 3 majors later I'm still here. I didn't graduate at 20 yrs old like I'd planned to do but I found my niche and I'm well on my way!

I hope you can let go of what I see as this need to have everything "together"...

Try thinking about what makes you happy, do you need a degree for it? If so, start your education there... later it may only become a hobby but that's a great place to start!

As far as the relationship thing, focus on yourself for a while.. it'll only complicate your life more right now...

*good luck* I totally understand what you're saying Im here for you!