Feeling dumped yet I did the dumping!
Well... It was all going good... those who know my story my ex of 4 yrs broke up with me about 5 months ago out of nowhere. I was in complete ruin etc etc... started to feel better about myself after a while... and started seeing this girl whom I've been seeing the last 2 months ish.
She's very pretty (prettier than my ex) which made me feel good about myself but I kind of felt I didn't deserve her. Anyway... things were going well - yea she has always been slightly crazy, eccentric and dresses like a tart sometimes but she is so much fun. In the back of my mind I knew she was not marriage material; although I'm not sure if this is because I felt I was not good enuf for her, or becus she just does not meet my expectations in what I want in a life partner. I tried my best not to get attached knowing she would end it at any point... but its ridiculous in the space of just a few months I developed really strong feelings for her.
That's when she started acting weird (up to a about a month ago) and basically stopped contacting me in the last 2 weeks. She said she didn't want to end it though when I asked her about it. Strangely this may make me sound quite needy but I'm not a needy person whatsoever! But going 2 weeks w/o bareley txtin/speakin/seein your girlfriend seems wrong to me, having gone from spending quite a lot of time together. Anyway... after more messing about - her saying she would change - nothing has changed, still ignoring etc. So I had to end it because it was making me unhappy.
So now I feel upset because she should of been the one that ended it not me... and its brought back all the old feelings I had for my ex...
As it happens Im going on a date with this other girl who I'm not even sure if I like. Is wrong with me? I do not need a woman in my life... but reading this... and me saying I'm not needy... maybe I have turned into some weird needy person. I don't know what to do... I was starting to feel really good about myself in a long time... then this :(