Best friend and love hurt me so much
We loved each other but I had a boyfriend. At least he said he loved me. We were very good friends for about 6 yrs. Talking on icq, messenger and rarely some calls. It was the best friend for me. We live in different countries about 1000 km far from each other. He behaved weird all the time, like worried about new people and didn't like to go outside his house. A month ago he wanted to see me and I agreed to come and see if we become something more than friends. I needed to make the visit till May and he knew why (that's not important in this story). After a week I wrote him sms that I should book tickets soon and got no answer. I thought he was even ignoring me on msn, never started a communication so I wanted to know what happened. He wrote me few sms, first denied he ignored me and didn't reply my sms. Than I cried a lot cause he told me he changed his mind and did not want to meet anyone. I feel very hurt now and it's so big hurt I never expected from such person. It seems like he ignores me on msn so I think we finished with the friendship. Or not? I hurt every day, cry about it and feel so betrayed :( What should I do. Is the relationship over forever? And why?