Hey, well my boyfriend dumped me 3 days ago, and its been such a pain to live without him by my side anymore. We've been together for a year and a half and we had ups and downs. We broke up after 8 months because he realised he had no more feelings.. wich was a load of and went with another girl a week later... I didn't want to talk to him after what he did and we wouldn't talk for 1 month... after this he started to talk to me on msn and I was trying to ignore him , he was telling me how he felt for me and that he made a huge mistake... alot of things happened after that and we got back together. Now its been 9 more months and we had ups and downs fighting practically every week at least 2 or 3 times. We would always find a way to fix things and try to make things work out. He decided to take a break with me during winter because I thought he was cheating on me when he told me he was going on a girls night out when my friend called him she heard girls talking in the backround.. He never told me about it that night until I brought it up and told him he wasn't doing the right thing by lying to me. During that break I did not want to talk to him and I realised how much I missed him so much and he kept calling me and I wouldn't answer. He left me messages,voicemails and when I turned my phone on to check them he was calling again. I answered and he was telling me how much he missed me and that he can't wait to see me and that it was painful for him that I thought he didn't want to talk to me during vacations. Everything got settled and we got back with the conditions that we wouldn't fight anymore. Few weeks after, it started again , we fought over stupid stuff. He was calling me insecure and paranoid. He was beiing different with me and was always hiding stuff from me. Every time I wanted to play a game on his phone he had to unlock it with a password and I asked him why he put a pass and told me its because everything on his phone is his private life and that he has the right to choose not to tell me anything if he doesn't want too. I felt like a horrible person, I thought he couldn't stand me anymore and that he didn't like me anymore. We fought over and over again. When one morning I asked to see him he gave me an excuse and started screaming at me saying I don't want to talk to you, I didn't understand why and I kept asking him he said stop your not letting me breath this can't continu like this, its just a waste of time I'm sorry we can just be friends. I kept asking him why he was letting me go just like that on the phone without talking to me face to face. He said stop it I don't want to hear you and he would always hang up on me. I cried all night and couldn't sleep. The next day he calls me to get some news and said he's happy I respect his decision and his time. He knew that I loved him so much and that I didn't want to let him go. 2 days later he calls me and asked me if I wanted to see him. I said okay and I went in his car to talk. I looked at him and started crying knowing it wasn't the best thing to do but I couldn't control myself. He said stop crying come here, hugged me and said that he still loved me and that this couldn't continue with the fighting all the time. I agreed and told him that I loved him too and that I was thinking about an agreement to try things out again. That we would see each other less than before to avoid any types of arguments. He said he wanted me back and we started kissing. We didn't fight all week and saw each other only twice. On valentines day he was telling me something I said last year and that I forgot about and then told me oh god I'm so recording the girl of my next relationship. HOW CAN UR BF TELL U THIS ON VALENTINES DAY!! I was shocked and told him okay just break up right now why waste time if your already thinking about another relationship. Everything got cleared up and he said its valentines day we shouldn't argue. We had a great time. 2 days later he calls me from work and tells me he wanted to see me later. I got ready and waited. He calls me back and tells me he was sorry that he had to for supper with his family I said okay then ill see you after it. He didn't call me all night till I texted him saying it was getting pretty late. He calls me back and says that he couldn't go out because his mom wouldn't let him drive because he drank a glass of whine. I really got mad and I couldn't believe he thought about drinking instead of thinking he had to see me later on. I started crying and telling him it wasn't fair that he should have thought about it and let me know so I could have made plans with my friends. I hung up to avoid the fight and tried calming down to call him back and say I was sorry. He ignored my calls and texted me that this week was to show improvement and there was none that he had to turn away and not look back. I couldn't stop crying because he wouldn't give me the chance to apologize and talk to him he just broke up with me like this and never spoke to me all night leaving me crying. I texted him saying how much he meant to me and how I loved him and that I only wanted the best for us that it wasn't fair he didn't let me explain myself. He told me he'll take in consideration what I said and talk about it the next day. He called me and said don't you think its better if we take time apart I said OK but I still love you and I don't want to loose you. He kept telling me that he couldn't get back with me because we would have fought one day or another over and over again and that it wasn't a healthy relationship. He said that the only reason he would get back with me is because he has pity for me crying a lot. I couldn't stop crying and couldn't understand why he would say such a thing just had to let him go to work. He calls me later at night to know how I was doing and he seemed not to care . He still wants to stay friends with me but I told him it was something really hard for me since I still loved him a lot. We still talk everyday but not as much as we used to. Now all I keep thinking about is him and what I did wrong. I really want him back and my friends are telling me to leave him space. I do by not seeing him and talking to him once in a while. But its just so hard to face the fact we're not together anymore. I don't know what to do please help me out. I want him back I need him, he was the only person who would make me feel better and would give me affection.
