In love, but don't want to be too desperate.
Hello,
On March 14, 2007 I feel that I meet my soul mate, the love of my life.. we both meet online and he was really into me as well.. soon we decided to see each other for the 1st time on July 14- we would usually see each other every weekend after that but it had to be at night cause my apartment is right across my parents house and we don't want them to yet find out.. We've already seen each other for almost 2 months but have been talking for almost 6 months online and over the phone-we both have fallen really deep for each other and when we kiss I sometimes feel for it to never end.. I want to be with him everyday and every minute he's told me also that he feels the same way.. Here is where my question and problem comes in-we both already have been intimatly together and I now love him even more.. practically every weekend we get THAT close but Ive noticed that some of the days like on a Saturday or Sunday he doesn't want to be THAT close with me- I mean, he doesn't tell me straight off that he doesn't want to be with me that way but I can kind of tell when he says lets watch a movie or lets do this.. he doesn't start it off and sometimes I wish I can start it off but I don't want him to think that every time he comes to visit me its for sex... I just love him so much that I don't know what has gotten in to me, I want to be that close to him everyday- I sometimes feel when this happends if he still loves me as much as before-sometimes I feel that I love him more than he does to me.. even though I sometimes notice that it might be the other way around by the way he kisses me and stares.. the problem here that I am trying to get through is that if I should be the one to turn him on every time I want to be with him or would that be too desperate.. I just need some advice on what to do-iam so hooked on this guy and want to do things the way a woman should do it.. please help