I Still Think That It's My Fault...
Hey,
So my stunt group in cheering put this new flyer up into and extension, and we hadn't done it before and so I was a little uneasy when my coach said to cradle it, I knew something was wrong, but I didn't say anything, and I obviously didn't push hard enough because she went flying over my head, and we had a lot of spotters, but I still tried to catch her. What I ended up doing was grabbing her shirt, and someother spotters helped to keep her from falling on her head, but she fell smack on her foot, and broke her leg in two places! She's going to the hospital tomorrow to see if she needs surgery, and even though our coach told us that it wans't any one person's fault, I felt like all eyes were on me, even though they weren't. And I told one of my teammates, and she told our coach and our coach called me and made me promise that I wouldn't blame myself for it, and my friends are trying to make me feel better, but I still feel like I'm just trying to get attention on myself, when I SHOULd be crying for my hurt teammate, when I'm just being selfish and feeling bad about myself. I should have told them to take it down and I didn't! But, I don't know, I just, uuh, I don't want it to be like I want attention or anything, because she was on MY side when she fell, the coach's daughter said that we should just dive to get our flyer, no matter what, and I didn't! I just put my arms out like an idiot! And let her break her leg! I was the closest person to her and I just didn't act fast enough, I could have stopped that from happening, and I didn't, and I'm sorry, I'm just sorry...
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