Okay.. I know in the past you have all told me that I might be insecure... but I'm not.. I just have trust issues.. mostly cause.. my boyfriend has done cocaine after promising me he wouldn't.. twice.. he said he is done now.. but I am just not sure if I should believe him or not.. but that's not my biggest problem.. my very GOOD friend Mandy, is friends with my boyfriends little brother and he told her that he has seen her with the swame girl twice.. that wasn't me.. alone at his house.. and I know Mandy would not lie to me.. she is not like that.. she is the only person I can trust and has always been there for me no matter what. I don't think he is cheating me.. but if he was with another girl and wasn't doing anything wrong, shouldn't he have told me who he was with instead of saying he was by himself? He said its cause it's that one girl I hate (in my last question) so he didn't want me to get mad.. but I found out.. so.. I am more mad now cause he hid it from me..
Also another friend of mine.. or used to be.. she always used to try to break us up.. and all of a sudden.. they were acting like best friends.. he hated her a month ago.. this doesn't make much sense to me?? And this girl Steph is her name, she has always tried to take everything that makes me happy away from me.. like credit for my ideas, ruin my relationships.. just stuff like that.. SHE DOESN'T WANT ME TO BE HAPPY so I had to drop her.. and now I KNOW FOR A FACT she is doing the same thing now with my boyfriend. She doesn't want him as a boyfriend as she has one.. but she just doesn't want me to have one because that's the type of person she is.. took me two years to notice it.. maybe cause I'm not like that so I wasn't looking for that in her.. but I'm glad I did.. I asked him to stop talking to her and he has.. but he doesn't seem to think I have a legit reason.. but I know what she is trying to do.. and he thinks that I'm just over reacting and I will be friends with her in like a month.. its not going to happen.. I'm done with her.. deleted her number, e-mail, and everything els that has to do with her.. I am a jelous person.. I know I am.. and trust me, I'm not letting it get the better of me but, I honestly do not want them to talk at least until she finds someone else's life to ruin.. Am I wrong for wanting this? Cause I don't think I am.. he hated her a month ago.. it just doesn't make much sense.. it aboslutley drives me insane when they call each other and hang out.. cause I know that she is trying to do.. and he doesn't seem to understand or care.. he says she is his "friend" but she was a lot of my friends friend at one point and she has ruined them all, I can't keep putting up with them talking, she is trying to ruin it.. she is very subtle about it all, maybe she is bitter?
My question is, What am I supposed to do when you love someone so much and when soemthing goes wrong it hurts SO MUCH I have been unhappy for the past month because of everything that has happened.. its like one thing after another, I love my boyfriend, I do not want to end it.. but I cannot make anyone else happy until I'm happy and he is not making any effort at all to make sure I am happy.. he does not understand anything I say..
Relationships take two righT?
You need to listen to each other and see both opinions.. not just one..
I really do not want to give up on our relationship but I cannot keep going on knowing that its just going downhill and unless he starts trying to earn my trust back and trying to see my side of things and make me happy. It isn't going to work.. I really want it to.. but I guess I am just giving up hope on it.. but I don't want to.. but is there really a point in even trying if I am the only one trying to make it work?? I don't think so.. I've traid talking to him.. but he can never see my opinion on things.. sorry this is so long.. I just wanted to explain it all fully so you guys can understand and not call me insecure:) I Guess each paragraph of this is a different question.. I would LOVE any feedback on any part!
