I'm 32,been married 10 yrs but has been with my husband since I was 15 yrs old. He has pushed me to the side, ignored me,controlled me, and cheated on me for years. He even slept with my sister... I always wanted to be loved by him so I always forgave him. 5 yrs ago I met a guy fell in love and have been in a off and on reletionship with him. I feel like we are soul mates, he's my best friend and I can't imagine him not being in my life. However, since my husband found out about my affair he hasn't been cheating to my knowledge. I've left him and returned several times for the sake of our children, but am ready to call it quits-permanently... im so confused... I love my husband as a friend a really don't want to hurt his feelings but I can't deny my love for the other guy. My other guy wants me to divorce so we could get married... can anybody give any advice?