FINAL --
I knew that this rank wasn't going to get me the major I wanted, and I was right. I was invited to pursue bio-chemical engineering at IIT-Varanasi.
I was pretty depressed. I wanted to give it another try because I wanted my path to be chosen by me, not by fate. But is this a right decision? I wondered. Am I rightly judging my ability? To this day, I still weigh the ethical dilemma of my career decision.
I have come to realize that important decisions in life are often difficult to make. I'm confident that I’ve made a good one this time--and, remembering this experience, I will make more good ones in the future. Waiting a whole year for “my moment” has also given me patience and an increased tenacity that I will carry forward into other areas of my life.