I don't want to argue with you. I was an adult victim of rape. You have mentioned your various physical and emotional problems and never said a word about rape. That isn't fair to those of us who are trying to help you.
As an adult victim of rape I don't understand how/why you have an "adult" site for people to share sexual experiences and photos. We all come out of the rape experience in different ways. I do understand that part.
You continue to post that you were a virgin when you got married, that you "only" had sex with your husband.
On December 9, 2008 you posted about having sex with your boyfriend: https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/pregna...ml#post1451638
. That's certainly prior to your December 2010 wedding - and I think that takes away your virgin status, too. In fact, you mention this sexual experience several times, always referring to your boyfriend, never referring to a rape.
Forced sex or not, you were not a virgin and that fact is important when you ask questions it could impact.
Minimally this thread should be combined with your OTHER thread about the same thing.
I am not going to spend any more time and energy on your old posts but you have posted about a multitude of health problems (some of them sexual) - https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/other-...e-476229.html; https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/womens...e-471607.html; https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/other-...n-466389.html;
In the event you are making things up to get attention, you really should see a professional. You must be very unhappy. I suppose you could be a troll but I very much doubt it.
At any rate why don't you come back and ask an honest question and let someone try to assist you?